The Silent Call

A friend of mine asked me to speak to her about our weekly prayer meetings. She had heard that I had some opinions and she wanted to talk them over. I personally was freak out cause even though I scream for change inside, I really fear being the leader of it.
I talked to my friend for an hour last night and it was awesome! So we decided to go to some of the leaders of the entire organization(remember, we just started on the prayer meeting). That took another hour or so and that was amazing too.
Now resulting from that, I was asked to lead the prayer meeting this week, which happens to be tonight(I was asked around 12:30am whether I would lead it). I am extremely nervous about all of this and I don't really understand how some of the words came out of my mouth last night(That was really a God thing).
So my entire notion of how things need to change is finally here and I'm really nervous about being the one that needs to start the spark. But at the same time, I feel as if this is the reason why I am here at this college. This has been my purpose this entire time and I'm sick of feeling self-pity and anger and all these things that shouldn't matter in life. I'm really letting go. God has a plan for me and I'm giving it completely to Him. I am at the point where I do not care if I get scrutinized by people, because I'm listening to God. Let's stop being lukewarm Christians and let's get fired up for Christ!
Check this out:
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Detached?

So, I got accepted into my new university and have been very excited about it all. Now, I have been worried about the whole detaching thing(Because it seems to be a thing I do when I leave) and I haven't been doing that.
The only bad thing is, I feel as if others are detaching from me and thus leaving me alone. This could possibly just be in my head or it could be a reality. I cannot decide. It's just difficult if you don't know if someone is angry at you, detaching from you or is just having one of those days.
It's this type of drama that I honestly want to avoid for my last quarter and part of the reason on why I am heading home most weekends. I just know that I can only handle so much of this type of drama and I don't want this to be my last memory. I just hope all gets changed or at least becomes bearable.

Movie Nights

So the last couple of days, my roommate has been putting in different movies at night. Now I am in no way complaining since I love all the movies that have been played. They have been mostly Disney(which I need to proclaim is pretty awesome!).
Now with this leads me to the last one we have watched which literally finished 20min ago. It was Peter Pan and I must admit that I have always loved the idea of Peter Pan. A boy who doesn't grow up and is able to play all day long and have adventures! What could be better than that!?!
But of course like what Wendy says near the end of every version is that they must return to grow up. Some things you cannot understand until you grow up and that was her point. She knew they needed to grow up because there is more to life.
For the longest time I wished I could go to Neverland(what kid didn't want to go there), but now as I have grown up a bit and am making life decisions, I still wish I could go. I guess at a certain point in time everyone reaches a point when they just want to go back in time to be a kid again. Life seemed so much easier back then. But like what Wendy says, we have to grow up, but I don't think we need to completely grow up. I think we need to grow up a lot, but keep the imagination alive. We need to keep that childlike excitement or we become boring.
Well, that's it. Now it's time for me to travel to the second star to the right.