I haven't recently written in this wonderful blogging world, since, well, I have been very busy with life and all that my life entails.
Overall, my summer has been a typical summer with trying to find a job, swimming, tanning and the late night movie watching. I have enjoyed all of these activities because they are all relaxing even if they do take a lot of energy.
This might get you thinking why the title is "Smashing Change." It seems as if I have had no real change other than getting ready to adapt to a new school, but I have had an experience which has made me enjoy life a lot more, but has also put a tremendous fear in my life.
I, like many other young drivers turned statistics, got in a car crash. It was all my fault, and I admitted it even when it first happened. The car was completely totaled and well, it was not fun to tell my parents that. But I was able to walk out of it alright with nothing wrong.
Now the lesson I learned was to be a safer driver, but the bigger lesson was that I am not invincible.
There are so many times in my life that I feel as if I can overcome any obstacle or go through anything. Now, there are certain things I can overcome, but it was lucky that I came out of a car wreck with no injuries. I cannot even show how thankful I am to God that this was the case, but I also feel as if it was a lesson from Him that I cannot do things on my own.
I cannot rely on my own doings to make my life the way I want it. I also cannot determine my fate and be thoughtless with my actions. There are times that I could be in danger, but with my lack of self awareness could cause me to get into even more trouble.
Now the smashing change is that the fear of letting go and giving it to God is always difficult, but after an event like that, one can actually understand the whole point of only God is in control.
While spinning around in a vehicle after getting hit, all a person can do is pray and He is the only one who can help.
It's a little intimidating, a little bash at the Christian-ego, and a reassurance that He is always there.
I honestly have no idea if this post makes any sense, but I hope that one day this smashing change will come to you just not like it came to me.
